School has started. I think this semester will be a good one. I'm finally getting into the teaching classes. Finally something more than just learning about the No Child Left Behind Act, although it's very important. Something new and refreshing, not just the same ole things you learn in every education class. I have one class about the school health system, which I know sounds lame, that I think will be very helpful. I've only been to the class two days and it does by so fast. The teacher gives us real life, tough situations that college or class really doesn't prepare you for. It's great. It's going to be one those classes and teachers that I remember from years to come when I have my own classroom. Very good.

Lately I have been in this weird mood. Weird is really the only word to describe it. I'm not a depressed kind of person, but that's really the only word I can use to describe it. I don't know why... I mean I do, but I don't. I'm weird. I just feel like there is so much that I want to do, but I'm here. I'm at home, working at the Gap and going to school. I want so much more than this.
I want to travel.
I want to build relationships.
I want to be independent.
I want to be me.
I guess I'm just restless. I have a restless heart. And through all my weird moodness, I think I've realized that through all this I need to rely on God. When the time comes, I will do all of these things. I am at home for a reason. I am back at a job that I hate for a reason. He knows the plan. He freakin' made the plan. Now I just have to have faith.

My phone keeps dying. It's rather annoying to be in the middle of a phone conversation and your phone just dies. Ka-put. Bam. It's dead. Rather annoying. So as an attempt to fix this annoying problem, I went on the search for the AT&T store near my house. I drove there. It wasnt' there. Closed? Maybe. Basically, instead of fixing the phone problem, I busted $1.08 for a precious dip cone from McDonalds. I feel like they know me there. Mhm... not so good. Maybe I need to switch locations.

In about an hour, Behrsy and I are going to Murfreesboro to see the boy's new house and celebrate the birth of Whitney. Fun times.

I am a little unsettled about not moving. As always I am very indecisive. My heart wants one thing and my head another. Financially, it would be stupid for me to move out. I am by no means rich. But other than that I can't see a problem. I hate having to be such a people pleaser, constantly wrapped up in what my parents will think about things, but I guess that's what makes me Lindsey. I am an indecisive people pleaser...

and I'm possessive about my food. Last night Surupa, Tim, Jessica and I discussed the rules of when it is ok to eat off my plate or not. Basically if I have it on my plate, don't touch. If we have bought something to share though, it's fair game. It's probably in your best interest to ask though before you touch the food on my plate. I may be nice, but when it comes to food... I do a 180. :) Just ask my friends.

Call me crazy, but I'm ready for school to start. This sitting around business ain't working for me. I don't think I could have handled this all summer. Thank goodness for camp and it's busy schedule.

And I'm out like trout, for real.

As I get older, I think I start to appreciate my parents so much more than ever before.

My dad is the tough, military man who runs a tight ship, but I call him "papa." He sometimes pretends to be ghetto. I love him for that. Lately though, he has been understanding and sympathetic. Even when I cry, he consoles me.

My dad and mom are redundant sometimes.
Lani: So what would happen if you give the dogs these bones?
Victor: They'd get sick.

This happens many times a week. I love them. I appreciate all the work they do to keep us going as a family. I am proud.

And I'm moving out. To Murfreesboro. Woo.

Right now my heart is longing for everything it once knew.

I miss camp. My heart wants to be back in that bubble where everything was perfect and I didn't have to worry about anything.

I want to be back.

And if I could express all of my feelings in words right now, I would, but I can't.

I guess it could be simply put as heartbroken.

I got a new Bible yesterday. There's nothing like those crisp, clean pages waiting to be read and discovered. In some ways, I feel like I'm cheating on my NIV, but hey... it's God's word, so I'm not. :)

Last night we saw Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. Man, what a good chic flick. It made my heart all warm and fuzzy.

Madi, me, and Anna

My Teepee home

Ask me

Man oh man. Camp is over and my heart is heavy. I think I left a piece of my heart in Indiana.

This week was a great way to end the summer. Willow Creek Church from Chicago took over the camp for the week with 250 junior high students. I was a little nervous about working with older kids, but the presence and security of the Lord was there all week. I was able to bond with these girls. Oh baby, hot gravy. They were amazing!

One girl named Paige really opened up to me and my co-counselor, Cat. She was one of those girls that seemed to have everything together in her life-spiritually and emotionally. She was awesome. On Wednesday, she came to me and Cat with a heavy heart, anxious to talk to us. I sat there in the amphitheatre as she talked about issues with her body image and her family problems. All I could tell her is that she was a beautiful creation of the Lord, meant for greatness and wonder. I was surprised at how she could recognize her need for change. We prayed with her. She was probably the hardest to say goodbye to, simply because of the bond we had created.

After the kids left and numerous hours of work projects, we gathered in the dining hall for dinner. We had worship and then we circled up in the dining hall for our typical goodbye song. A song that we had sung so many times brought tears to my eyes.

My friends may you grow in grace
And in the knowledge of our Lord and Savior
My friends may you grow in grace
And in the knowledge of Jesus Christ

To God be the Glory
Now and Forever
Now and Forever, Amen
To god be the Glory
Now and Forever
Now and Forever, Amen.

It's so hard to leave, but I know I'll be back. This is something I'm certain of.

But now it's time to get to work. I want to share. I want to be bold. I want to proclaim his name from the rooftops for all to hear. I want to tell you how God has changed me this summer before I tell about those kids-say-the-darndest-things moments.

I want you to know how God provided.
I want you to know how God strenghtened and empowered.
I want you to know how God changed.

Ask me.